Maybe it would be better
if I imagined happiness
in objects I have owned for years
instead of searching for it
as if it were buried treasure
or debating whether it is worth
the investment as if I hold shares
or twiddling my thumbs
hoping the cashier won’t id me
as if it can be bought
or clawing at the lid of Pandora’s
jar but it is the opposite.
I could see happiness
in my washing machine faded jeans
I refuse to throw away
because although they’re grey
they still fit like a glove.
Or the hot water bottle
I’ve had since uni
and cradle as if it’s a baby.
Or the coat with stuffing
spilling from a split
in the armpit.
Or the boots I’ve well worn
love into the heels
so they’ve grown holes.
Or the cheap necklaces
I horde like gold
and wear in the bath
when I shouldn’t.
Or the slow cooker
my nanny found for free
and gifted to me
and I’m pretty sure
it is older than me.
Or the books, books
and journals
read and unread
which fill every shelf
and drawer.
These are the things
which make me happy
bring me a contentment
only I understand
because they are just things
things which if you took away
I’d miss like summer rain
and finally understand
how it really feels
to be in pain
instead of this
psychosomatic
broken record runaway train
of fabric misery
and not this again.
© Kristiana Reed 2019
Brilliant words.
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Thank you 💛
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I loved it, it actually feels like my life sometimes when I was trying to forget.
Loved hearing it as well ❤️
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Thank you 💛 in a way I am sad it reminds of you a time in your life but I hope it reminds you you’re not alone in feeling this way sometimes xx
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It’s often similar to how I coped. Looking for silver linings to anything and perspective
It always helps to know I’m not alone ❤️
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It makes perfect sense that we find happiness in the things we’ve shared aspects of our lives with. There is a deep comfort found in these words. Excellent!
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I am glad you found comfort in this piece 💛 Thank you.
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I did and you are kindly welcome 🙂 ❤
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Very clever metaphors here. And the first stanza? Oh my god.
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Thank you my sweets!! 💛
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Thank you ☺️
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Now I am starting missing my things 🙂
Well written and very beautiful pic
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