I’ve been ill recently and part of the recovery has been learning how to be kinder to myself. I have decided to document the times I’ve felt pretty; this is my way of reminding myself there have been moments I have looked in the mirror and didn’t feel worthless. Being ill and being unkind has taken its toll on my body the most. The very thing that keeps me here has suffered the most. I’ve lost weight. I have scars on my face from picking at it, obsessively. My nails are bitten to the quick because of biting them, nervously. My eyes are puffy from my open relationship with sleep and I see this every day because I cannot wear make up anymore without my skin breaking out. I’m trying to be better; to mend hurts and holes that are years old but it’s hard and I do it every day. Some days are better than others. Some have moments like right now; moments when I feel pretty and comfortable in my skin.
© Kristiana Reed 2018